Finally Home? Releasing Memories (Open)

[Missa]

Finally. They were out of the barracks, once more that step was behind her. Once again she could experience the excitement of leg room, of being able to move around. She could see, jsut looking at Maiath, how happy the tiny green was with the new space, being able to stretch out on her weyrledge, and not be bothered by her siblings. No, now she had all this space to herself, and she didn't need to share! Well, except for the two flitters currently dozing against her back, both Scuttle and Crystal snoozing lightly. She didn't know how they could sleep, Maiath was excited to be out of the barracks.

For Zadari, it was bitter sweet. Yes, she was a fully fledged rider... Again. Though finding Maiath had been like suddenly piecing herself back together, it was like eveything had been glossed over, the pain had been there and Zadari could remember the bleak times as well as those sudden weightless days with her beautiful, and loving green. Even with that, there was no escaping the fact that she'd been here before, unpacking her things into her new weyr with the excitement racing through her veins, but now with teh all new feeling of dread. What if she lost Maiath through stupidness too? Could she bear to lose another part of her soul? The answer was no, no she couldn't bear to lose her too.

Glancing around the weyr, there was a sadness in the green rider's eyes that hadn't been there for so long, making Maiath look up with a croon, a simple inquiry as to what was wrong. Wordlessly, Zadari shook her head, frowning slightly. She had to let go, she knew that she couldn't be all that Maiath truly needed while she clung to the blue's memory. She'd always wished he'd come back, but that would mean wishing she'd never Impressed Maiath, which wasn't true, she'd never known anything like it. Impression alone was wonderful, but being the person you thought you'd lost? Being able to regain that person that had been missing in the mist of depression, seeing the world clearly again... It was nothing like anything else.

Still, it was time to let go, she couldn't be Maiath's rider while she was Sitath's. Moving over to her green, Zadari rested her cheek against the green's as she let one tear escape, one tear for one person she'd lost.
Time to let go...

[yamamoto]

Little did Zadari know there was a thrid flit in her weyr, who had dropped by to see Scuttle. It was T'lat's flit Emerald. She looked at the crying girl curiously before bettewening to go find her pet. Becuase she knew that he was good with these sort's of things.

She reappered moments later inside of T'lat's and Inolyn's shared weyr and flew down to land on his bondeds shoulder. T'lat was in the middle of reading a book as he looked at her when she chirped at him. He sighed at the image she showed him and slowly stood up. Even if there dragon was there, T'lat could not stand to know the fact that someone was crying alone. Especially when there was somthing he could do about it. Hansth sat up and stregth and told him Mine I would like to come to. T'lat nodded his head as he left his weyr with his dragon following him. When he reached the door to Zadari's weyr he knocked softly and began to open the door and asked " Zadari are you alright." Hansth said to Maiath Me and Mine came to see about yours if that is alright.

[Missa]

Maiath looked up in surprise as the bronze spoke to her, letting off a soft squeak in shock and a smlall amount of shyness as she curled her body around her touchy rider, gazing up at Hansth uncertainly. She didn't know how Zadari would react to their weyrling mate, not in this state. She knew her bonded's mind, she knew there was someone her bonded missed terribly, and that Maiath would never meet this dragon. She understood that this dragon had once been Hers', just like she was, and she understood that it had made Hers hurt like nothing else. Could Hers jsut let go of that.

Zadari looked up in shock at the sound of Hansth and T'lat, scrubbing her face with one hand to try and erase the tears as she offered her once fellow weyrling a small smile.
"I'm fine." She managed a wider smile before it fell slightly, as though the green rider were wondering whether to let the other rider in on her confidence. It was hard, knowing that come Threadfall, and their fuirst fight, Zadari knew she'd have to take orders from people like T'lat. Unfortunately for her mates, Zadari had more experience than they did, and more than some of the riders too. She knew what it was like to lose the warmth in one's world.

"I've been here before, you know?" She spoke softly, resting her finger's against Maiath's pale green cheek, finger's carressing her hide softly as the green nodded at the bronze shyly.
"Like... Not this weyr. But I've graduated... Before. Before Maiath. I've been this person, this newly graduated rider twice... I've been given another chance... But it's hard to let go, to move on and realise the part of my life where I was an experienced rider is gone, that my dragon, is gone. What if I'm stupid again? I made a mistake T'lat, I made a stupid, weyrling mistake, and it cost me a price much more dear than my life, what if I make that mistake again? What if Maiath get's hurt too?"